What are you doing and who are you trying to fool? Are you playing games with yourself to keep someone from looking bad or are you that bored? When all is said and done, you will wake up out of your fantasy world, in the same manner before you closed your eyes to sleep. You are only fooling yourself. If you want to entertain yourself, play a game of solitaire and get over it, him, or whatever / whomever you are shielding! You control the cards when you are the dealer and the player.
Deal yourself a winning hand. Always, play to win. You will probably look and feel better when you do!
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